3. Intuition Vs. Ego

Where do I start with having so much to say? I can talk for hours on this. Follow your intuition, not your fear (ego). Fear is your old stories. It's time you start a new story and stop allowing your past to control your present and your future. Now let me explain.

Everyone thinks ego is just a person who has high self-importance, high self-conceit, etc. Ego is also the part of self that is unconscious; unaware. When you are conscious of it, you can learn the difference on when it can be used as a helpful tool and when it can harm you. Ego is fear-based. Your Intuition is love-based. Ego is your overthinking, it's your impatience, your frustration, your anger, anxiety, depression, resistance to change, self-doubt, worrying about what others think, not believing in yourself and your abilities, proving your worth to yourself and others, projecting onto others, chasing, controlling, etc. Your ego doesn't know true happiness. It runs from it. It thinks it's protecting you from it because you're not use to it and possibly subconsciously don't think you're worthy of it. It fears failure when true failure is not even trying. Your intuition is the real you. Your spirit guiding you. Those gut instincts. The you that knows happiness and knows how to get you there.

Our ego suppresses our emotions of the past and the feelings attached to them because it wants to protect us from the emotional pain of certain memories. Our intuition wants us to face those memories to raise our consciousness, so we can heal and become who we were always meant to be. This is why we are here. To discover Self, which leads you to your purpose. Let your wounded parts become your greatest strength. To experience all the abundance, love, and prosperity The Universe has to offer us. And then one day, you wake up feeling the warmth of the sun, and you see and admire just how tall your leaves have grown, just how sturdy the roots of your foundation have become, and just how far your branches have reached out to touch the lives of so many other people. With every trigger is a mirror to an unhealed wound. Become curious instead of frustrated.

Our intuition wants us to step out of our comfort zones and take different actions than what we're use to. This will be difficult for the ego. It will start to freak out thinking it needs to protect you from something. Your ego will want to run back to the comfort zone even if that comfort zone meant unsafety, abuse, toxicity, whatever the case may be because that is the only thing it knows. Isn't it ironic how the ego wants to protect you and keep you "safe" when you really need to protect yourself from your ego; your fears? Think of your ego like a computer system. You are trying to change a program. Soon enough you will learn how to change the whole hard drive. This is a process and it takes work, you will grieve, but it is worth it for the price for inner peace, freedom, and complete bliss. Imagine seeing yourself through The Universe's eyes and knowing your Self fully. Start to observe your ego as outside of yourself and it is not your true self because that is a fact. It is the part of you that you had to create in order to survive based on the false belief systems we started to create as children. Our intuition wants us to push through the discomfort and resistance because that's where personal growth is. That is where happiness, peace, and love is found. Inside of you. We keep searching for love outside of us when it is within us all along. We just have to face our "baggage" and word of advice...don't get too many outside opinions.

In my experience, that makes it worse and makes the process last longer. The process is already hard enough, you don't want to make it longer. Yeah, sure, call up a friend or a relative from time to time or if you need to. Support is necessary especially during your awakening of Self, but always trust yourself. When a painful memory would bubble up to the surface or if I was going through a difficult situation, sometimes I would let fear take the lead and I would not sit with my discomfort. My anxiety would rise, I would call up a friend, then another friend, a relative, all with different opinions, making things worse because it would only create more fear. Then what makes matters even worse than that, is that you would project that fear out and make your difficult situation worse. If I would have just stayed calm and sat with the discomfort, prayed for clarity and waited for an answer patiently, my intuition would have answered me in a very short amount of time. It comes in thought when you don't expect it. What I came to realize is, I had the answers all along. I realized all my friends and relatives I got advice from were wrong. I was right all along. Sure, they gave great advice, but their advice is filtered through their own lens, their own experiences, and my sweet soul...you are on your own journey, separate from theirs.

I've always been a private, suffer in silence type, but now I’m not afraid to speak my truth. Asking others was a trauma response by being deceived, manipulated, gaslighted, and abused for so long. Putting my trust into someone only having that person put doubt in me constantly. I learned to trust myself again and made a promise to myself to never allow anyone to keep me small ever again. Some people will fear your light. My advice is to keep shining. Those people just aren't ready. They are not ready to have a complete shift in their reality. Fact: they are controlled by ego. I no longer doubt. I trust the very first thing. That is your intuition. The first thought. It's quiet and it is calm, like a whisper. When you start to doubt and overthink, that is your ego; fear. My vibrational frequency has gotten so high that I can see right through that...pardon my French...shit. It has gotten so high that all you have to do is approach me, I can feel your energy, and know that you are a big, fat NO. I see right through lies and deception. My intuition is strong. The universe has tested me (giving me opportunities for growth; to make sure I am, in fact, healed, to move me into the next phase of my life) and I passed with flying colors. Now that I have broken patterns and continuing to do so, I am attracting different in my life. I have been attracting my tribe, attracting the people of who is in alignment with me at this time. Things have fallen off and it was hard, but it was so things can fall into place. Things that were always meant for me and I have never felt so free.

If you don't want your fear (ego) to control your life and your happiness, then I suggest you keep reading. If you want to learn how to be able to discern the difference between your ego and your intuition, I suggest you keep reading. If you want to break patterns and cycles that you're in, discover your false beliefs and where they came from so you can manifest the life you want, I suggest you keep reading.

Sometimes if I'm unsure what my intuition is saying, check in with how your body feels. Simple example, should I go to the party or stay home and watch Netflix? I don't really want to go to the party, but something is pulling at me to go. Good news is that you could leave after fifteen minutes if you're not "feeling it." Notice how I said pulled. It is important to choose the body in the present moment and allow your body to feel good with what you chose. If it does not feel good or if it does not know which choice to make yet, then do not choose until your body is ready. The ego holds the fears; the past experiences. The ego will try to talk you out of it, but the body is the true reading. If you choose something impulsively, know that you can always go back before the action was taken. For a more serious matter, ask yourself what kind of advice would you tell your sixteen year old daughter or son, your best friend, or loved one if they came to you with the same challenge. Ever notice you can dish out great advice to others, but never take your own? Your intuition is talking to you. It’s interesting how we can offer great insights to others, but struggle to apply the same wisdom to ourselves. Be your own best friend and look at your challenges from a detached, objective perspective.

Be open and take the path of least resistance. There's healing there. There's love there. Those uncomfortable memories and feelings to be looked at, learned from, and released from yourself is worth the price of inner peace, freedom and complete bliss like I already mentioned. This is where True Ascension lies. To experience happiness that you never knew existed. Embrace the pain; the suffering and give it love. When you embrace what is or what was, it makes it easier and the pain won't last long. When you resist (ego; anxiety, depression, suppressing it, the anger, the frustration, the impatience, the control, etc.), the suffering becomes worse, will last longer, and you end up manifesting the opposite of what you want or you just feel stuck in your current circumstances.

Let me share a silly story before I elaborate on this. It may give you a laugh if you know me. I feel it's necessary to share because this silly experience really helped me truly comprehend how to embrace the pain. I went on a retreat and tried sananga eye drops. I was told that it cleanses your energy and brings mental clarity. Don't judge. I don't know what I was thinking. Haha! I researched it and thought to myself, "Oh, why not?!" I chose to trust the process and oh my gosh! I experienced a burning in my eyes that gave me physical pain. As I shouted and squirmed, my mentor said, "EMBRACE THE PAIN.” I immediately allowed my body to calm, to relax, and I peacefully embraced the physical pain and the pain stopped after a minute or two. When I shouted and squirmed TRYING TO RESIST it, the pain got worse and lasted longer. I know because I made myself experience this twice. I do not recommend. This laughable experience helped me really understand how we can APPLY this to our EMOTIONAL pain.

Accept that you sometimes get angry or impatient, worried, doubtful, frustrated, depressed, scared, insecure, or whatever emotion you are feeling. We are human. This is normal. We all have dark and light. We all have flaws; we're beautifully imperfect. Think about an infinity symbol. One side is dark, the other is light, and the center is self-acceptance, which is where you want to be. The importance of what I am trying to say is do not stay in that emotion for long. Master your emotions by observing them and not being consumed by them. Acknowledge and honor what you feel. You need to allow yourself to feel whatever it is you are feeling, process it, and learn from it. It's called a process for a reason. It's called a journey for a reason. Change does not happen overnight. Finally, let it go and give your worries and fears to God and know that things will get better. Let God, His Angels, and your Spirit Team take care of it for you. Stay positive and trust that everything is aligning perfectly for you on the other side to be manifested into your reality if you believe it. The Law of Attraction says, Belief will always be the missing ingredient. When you believe, you are certain, and you can relax into a sense of knowing. For example, go to work and continue to do your best, set goals, but do not worry about money. Have faith that you will receive abundance with a sense of knowing. When you hold on to worry (ego), you actually block The Universe from giving it to you. The certainty helps you relax and let it go. And for the love of God, have patience. Trust that He and his team of Angels are working on it behind the scenes. If you lost your faith and you don't believe in God, well then, trust that someone on the other side has heard you. There is a Source to this beautiful Universe we live in. Call it whatever you want, but have faith in The Universe and never lose hope.

Visualize you already having your deepest desires coming true. But there's more to it...you also must do the inner work to heal, so you can take different action and have different results. That's when change happens. I learned a lot, but know that your ego will always resurface. The practice is the awareness of it, so one day, it will eventually dissolve. When it resurfaces, it’s important to use your breath during this time. Your mind may scream, your muscles tense up, you’ll feel uncomfortable as if you feel like something’s wrong. This is when you tell your ego to be quiet. Tell it thank you for protecting me all this time, but there is no real danger here. I am safe. Be present in the moment, practice gratitude daily, enjoy the dance of life, be in flow, surrender and trust. Stop trying to control and needing to have all the answers right now. Ask and you shall receive. Again, have patience. Trust the timing.

Accept that we are human and we make mistakes. We live, we learn. Like I said in my previous post, change your thinking into what can I learn from this? What is this teaching me? How can I see this in a positive light and through the lens of love? How can we see this for our highest good and possibly for the highest good for others?

I see solutions when others see hardships. It's important to witness the difficult situations in your life through the lens of love (Gabrielle Bernstein). Everything happens for a reason. There is a plan. You will get through it and you will receive clarity in divine timing. Every obstacle is a detour in the right direction. The bigger the obstacle, the bigger the blessing. I believe the more obstacles and roadblocks is The Universe's way of testing your faith, testing your strength and your patience. Your blessings are so wonderful, there has to be challenges. You have to learn and evolve to get to where you want to be. Nothing is happening TO you, it's FOR you. This is how The Universe works. Now is not the time to give up. Nor it is ever. Seek help if needed and do not be ashamed of that. Vulnerability is strength, not weakness. Learning who to share to, what, and when is another topic I’ll discuss later. Surrender to your faith. Some things happen to us because they were meant to happen to us, so we can become who we were always meant to be, and to spread kindness and compassion to the world. To spread light. To share our stories and the successes from our stories. This requires us to be open and to be vulnerable and to live our authentic selves. To use our pain as fuel to help and empower others. This takes bravery because the ego will fight this. Do not take opinions from people who are not being brave with their lives (Brene Brown).

Other things happen to us by design, or by accident, or because we are manifesting that in our lives with our thoughts and false belief systems we created, which leads me to my next post... See you there!!!

EVOLE OR REMAIN. YOUR CHIOCE.